Thursday, 19 July 2012

Why I walk funny...

If you don't know my story and I am on a good day,not tired,no pain,you will not notice it..I think.

I walk a bit funny...I can't run or jump...if you push me down I scream like it's the end of the world on my way down!!I am terrified that I may hurt my legs and have to go back through what I have been in my teenage years.My legs are my deepest insecurity,my weakest point.There...it's out!You know it!:)

I will share my story with you...because I still don't really know the reason way God made it happen this way...and maybe sharing it with you..may help someone...

When I was nine years old, I started having really bad pain in my hips,it slowly got to the point were I could not sleep,I would wake up in pain when  trying to roll over in bed in my sleep.The doctors called it "growing pain"...I was 9, and it sounded stupid to me too...I did not see any other kid walking in pain,crying on the street....It got worse...if I would walk in to an quite room,you could hear my hips making this popping noise...it didn't hurt that much anymore...or I got used to it...At 14 I went to see a great doctor that my mum found and he knew what I had...get ready.........dislocated hips...it is some what common for baby girls to be born with this condition...if detected at birth, or in the few months after, it can be easily fixed without surgery.When I was born in Romania...they didn't test me or any other baby girl for it.I was born in 1985 in a communist country at that time.

My hips were in a pretty bad shape,for walking around with dislocated bones...I had to have surgery,and stay in a cast for 4 months,from my chest down to my ankles.After a year of recovery,my knee caps started to pop out like 5 times a day,I would put them back my self and keep on walking...it did hurt the first few times.I knew something was wrong...but I didn't want to go back to the hospital...until my knees started to get swollen and hurt...I have gotten fluid from all the popping(it sounds funny:)).So I had to have my knees fixed...and stay in a cast for 2 more months.Because I didn't get my hips fixed when I was a baby and I walked like that,I got osteoarthritis ..it usually happens after 45 years old...I got it at 10 or 11....I have pretty big scars on my hips and knees...I hate them and love like them at the same time...I really don't know how I would have gone through all that pain,because let me tell you,it hurt not only going through 5 surgeries but the recovery was the most painful thing!I was so blessed having my mum with me (my father was in jail... for drinking and driving...that's a different story...that I don't think I will ever fully tell.)and God.I depended on God for everything,I was so weak ,but He was so strong for me.I kept a journal at that time and I can see now looking back how blessed I am,I have all that I asked God for:I can walk,I have a family that I always wanted,a family that loves God!God is good!He keeps His promises,you may not see it now,but He can see the future,He will get you through it!


This is me and one of my favorite Bible verse :
Jeremiah 29:11

For I know the plans I have for you," declares the LORD,
"plans to prosper you and not to harm you,
plans to give you hope and a future.


He made me more tough..I may have a weak body...but that will go back to the dust any way...my soul,my hart is strong.My scars remind me of all that.Maybe I needed them to be the person I am today.I know that everything happens for a reason..I may not understand it now ,here on Earth,but I imagine my self walking one day with Jesus and Him telling me Why....

I don't really like talking about all that with people...I don't want to think of me like I'm week ...I am not..I can keep up with my girls just fine!They walk nicely next to mummy and I don't have to run after them...daddy has the running part covered when we go to the park.

That's it...my not so big deal story:))I really hope it encourages some one out there....

PS sorry for any bad grammar...I am a Romanian living in UK...keep that in mind!:)

15 comments:

  1. Thank you for sharing your story! How your faith in God developed and grew through such trials is truly inspirational! Dumnezeu sa te binecuvinteze in continuare! Not sure if I spelled that right. Never got the reading and writing in Romanian down too well :).

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    1. How come you know romanian? tell me more!!:) You spelled it perfect! by the way!:) Thank you!

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    2. I was born in Romania but moved to the states when I was 5 years old, we speak Romanian at home (which is a real challenge for my English only speaking husband), but I always struggled with the reading and writing part. I follow you on Pinterest also, we made the fellow Romanian connection there as well :)

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    3. Oh yhea,I thought you were the same Monica,but I wasn't sure!Great!Thank you so much for following!

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  2. What an ordeal. I was born with a similar condition with my hips. I remember going to therapy for it as a young child and wearing special shoes. My right hip still bothers me every now and again and I have a slight pigeon toe walk at times that used to really bother me.
    So glad it made your faith stronger and you were able to find comfort in God. :)

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    1. Wow,I can't belive you had a simlilat thing!I like you even more now!:))Thank you so much for sharing!!

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  3. Hi, I'm a new reader. Thank you for sharing your story with us! You are a very strong woman!

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  4. Beautiful photo, wonderful quote and a moving story...thank you for being real and Keep up the God work.
    Thanks for joining Think Quotes It's Friday! :)

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  5. Your story is so inspiring. I am so bless to have read it. Love the pictures. You have a beautiful family. Thanks for sharing!!

    PS - You are doing a great job with your grammar. I am an american, sometime I have my share of grammar hiccups. Can't wait to visit again from the US. :)

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  6. Hello,
    I am a new follower.
    Thank you for sharing.
    God Bless

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  7. Hi, I thought the post you linked in to Claire Justine was very inspiring. Good luck. I have linked in a post about some rhubarb and banana jam I just made. Have a super week.

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  8. Hey thank you so much for following Carole's Chatter. I am now following you, too!

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  9. I'm visiting from Lori's blog. I appreciate your honesty and applaud you for blogging in another language and for working hard to cope with your physical issues. So glad doctors were able to figure out what was wrong and how to fix it. I love the picture and verse. God bless.

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  10. Oh my goodness. That sounds horrible. Thank you for sharing your story!

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  11. You are so beautiful! What an amazing journey you have been on. Thanks for sharing your story!

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